Refresh. Refresh. Refresh.

I have been on break from teaching. It has been a much-needed time to refresh. I cleaned out the refrigerator. I went through the laundry area in the basement, cleaning behind the machines, tackling the loads that wait patiently until they are needed or large enough. They rarely are.

Refresh.

I take a break.

Refresh.

A woman is shot by an ICE agent in Minneapolis.

Refresh.

The federal government is calling her a domestic terrorist.

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They are saying she ran the agent over.

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That's not what the video shows.

Refresh.

I move my jewelry into the small chest of drawers I got at the historical society's fundraiser auction. It's now organized into drawers for what are most worn, what were my grandma's, and what were my mom's. This sets off a chain reaction of reorganization.

Little steps forward.

Refresh.

A 21-year-old is shot in the eye by federal agents with less-lethal ammunition. The gun was just feet from his face. He is left blind in one eye. He is lucky to be alive.

Refresh.

The video shows him with a bullhorn to his mouth. His only weapon was his voice.

Refresh.

ICE agents detain a man, taking him from his home in temperatures below freezing in his underwear and sandals.

Refresh.

They broke down the door. They didn't have a warrant.

Refresh.

He is a US citizen.

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I make dinners and lunches, mindful of leftovers so we have easy meals when our days get hectic. I add things to the donation box. Free up space in my drawers, and in my mind.

Refresh.

ICE agents detain a five-year-old and use him to try to detain others from within the house. The child has an open asylum case and came to the country according to the process. He and his dad are sent to detention camp in Texas.

Refresh.

I make Evan a special birthday dinner. It's an experiment and it turns out quite well. I'm pleased.

Refresh.

People are out in the streets in Minneapolis. Businesses are closed. It is well below zero, windchills pushing -40. There are thousands and thousands of them.

Refresh. Refresh. Refresh.

I make Evan a fancy birthday cake, something I've never made before. It's really good.

Refresh.

It's a little after noon and I'm finishing my coffee. It's later than usual, but we had a nice morning. I made a delightful hash from leftovers for breakfast. I have some work I should get done. I'll get to it when my coffee is gone.

Refresh.

A man is shot by Border Patrol agents.

Refresh.

He's dead.

Refresh.

The federal government is calling him a domestic terrorist.

Refresh.

The video shows him trying to help a woman who was shoved to the ground and is being pepper sprayed.

Refresh.

The video shows him with a phone in his hand.

Refresh.

The video shows the agents had removed his gun.

Refresh.

The video shows the agent shooting him in the back.

Refresh.

The video shows his body lying in the street as agents continue to shoot him.

Refresh.

Refresh.

Refresh.

I am not refreshed. I am ill. I am burning. I am restraining myself, from what - I don't know.